let's reinvent the wheel.

"So many people live within unhappy circumstances and yet will not take the initiative to change their situation because they are conditioned to a life of security, conformity, and conservatism, all of which may appear to give one peace of mind, but in reality nothing is more dangerous to the adventurous spirit within a man than a secure future. The very basic core of a man's living spirit is his passion for adventure. The joy of life comes from our encounters with new experiences, and hence there is no greater joy than to have an endlessly changing horizon, for each day to have a new and different sun."


If I were a little less practical, I'm positive that I'd be a radical. I look around me and choke on the words that I hadn't truly spoken, biting my tongue until blood soaks my intestines; don't you realize that your mistakes are obvious and that the solution is obvious and that every person you're looking down your nose at knows?

A friend once stated that being second to last is better than second to first. To be second to last means that someone is worse off than you, at least. To be second to best means that you barely missed out. There is someone who is better than you, and you simply did not have what it took.

I'd like to turn the whole world upside down. I'd like to see the parishes fall from grace. I'd like to see every person who's sound asleep in the security of apathy have nightmares, and scream out in discontent. I'd like to see the UN watch a commercial about a starving child in Africa and then try to say that trade barrier regulations are the first priority at hand. I'd like to see the President shake hands with all of China and say that second best makes a mighty fine ribbon.

The only way to see any nationalism is to ruin something. We join in times of sorrow and anger and the possibility of vindication, but not when it's 70 degrees and there's a "V" of birds who are flying home. Our home is what we own, forget what it feels like to listen to our hearts.

I'd like to see everything flipped upside down. I'd like to be a radical and say that we need to tear it all apart and start from square one, but the shortcomings don't belong to who runs our government. It belongs to being second best in our own homes. In our bedrooms. To our best friends. To our significant others. To our children and parents and pet. It's being second best to our childhood dreams; lashing out at the government won't help you play doctor one more time. Give it up, kid, it's not your place and this is not your game.

The kids that I babysit fight all the time. And when they do, they scream until they feel better. They scream and they're mean, they cry and then they apologize. They hug and they share what they were fighting over and their worlds go back to smooth sailing. No one is any better than a five year old. We just learn how to be selfish.

Fuck your heart. Open your ears.